Today, I slacked the whole day away, just sleeping thru the morning, crochetting thru the rest of the day. Only now do I feel the urge to type. Tee-hee.

Anyway, I lost a friend. it wasn’t just today, but for a couple of months already. I had it coming. What can I expect? Nobody’s ready for me to put my entire life on them. Not at this age. God, yes. Man, no. Even for such a strong believer, he left. Thaat shows the difference between man and God himself. Doesn’t matter. Somehow, from the start, I knew I had this comin’. I mean, who am I lyin’ to? I was a selfish one, most probably self-centred, ’specially to him. I’m ready to let go though. Totally. Ready. As long as he leaves me alone, I’ll leave him alone. Strangers in a fuckin’ happy life. Hurray.

Met ‘Qi earlier on at 11pm. Mac near my house. Was really happy to meet her but in the end, was reallllll pissed off. I mean, I know I haven’t gotten my own computer. What’s the biggie? Then she had to blast music from her laptop when I was listening to music on my zune. Dude! I know you love music, I do too. It’s just that our taste are completely different!! She’s all soul and guitar, I’m rock and punk and whatever tobasco shit man! Like, I love MOST genres of music. Street, punk, love…Whatever. But her’s gotta show class. So be it. We’re just way off in our tastes. Next, since I volunteered to help her do her business up, I was advising her but in the end she just brushed the mistakes aside and did’t bother much. If so, why ask me to help?! Argh. Finally, she insulted me and it was a really low blow here. I know she has the money and the abilities to get her laptop bag, I’m fine with it. Really. But she doesn’t have to say that the laptop cover I’m gonna knit is gonna fall apart. I love knitting and crocheting! It’s like a lost art. You dunno vintage til you do knits, yet knits can be modern too!

Argh! I’m just simming down now. I love her enough to say that I can tolerate all these. I’m just gonna speak to her about it one day. Sigh. No wonder at times Titus really wanne pick on her. It’s hard to resist picking on that person who thinks that she’s above the rest. Maybe if she reads this, she’ll understand that I was just annoyed. Telling me that what I knit will fall apart is like telling her that her business will go bust immediately even before she starts. A really low blow. Insulting too. Sigh. Still I cherish her.

Now, sad things aside, I can tell you, I did 2 things today. First, I finally crochetted a pouch for my mp4. It’s a drawstring pouch. I love it!! Second, I found this really great singer. All his songs are touching. Heart-wrenching, but definitely touching. Beautiful man we have here. The name’s  Enrique Iglesias. The following 2 videos are songs sung by him. Nice voice, though the video has a little explicit stuff going on. I hope you like him too….

The first one’s called “Do you know?” It’s beautiful, but really heart wreching if you listen to the lyrics clearly.

The second one is “Escape”. It’s rather light, sort of like a sweet and loving courtship. I like it too….

I really hope that you pardon my sarcasm today. I felt it was necessary. Ain’t no bitch though.

~Z.

Today I went to IKEA(Tampines, Singapore) with Sokeng to find a bookshelf for her room. It was quite interesting, since it’s been a long time since I went to IKEA to shop. The last few times I went there was for fun’s sake, even though I sort of bought stuff home. I ate 2 hotdogs with Sokeng as dinner and then we went to GIANT supermarket to check out their shelf too. Those were pretty lousy though, chipped at the corners, scratched at the front, you could get something much better at IKEA at less than thirty dollars, but GIANT was selling it at $49. A little too much, I believe.

In any case, we left at about 8.30pm, lunging along with us some cardboards that we bought(self-assembled storage boxes), and went back to Woodlands area. Planned on getting the silicone handphone cover for Sokeng at the Civic Centre, but sadly the stalls were closed, so we left and headed over to Comics Connections. They ended up closing the shop the minute I reached the door. Humph! Pissed….

Now, I’m home, just reading up some manga and watching D.Gray Man. Better than I expected, though I’m not really into it….

~Steph

Sometimes people do things for the sake of publicity. I really can’t understand why. I mean, is fame, glory and money all that’s important in this world? What about love and life? Friendship and loyalty? Why can’t some people understand that at times it’s a basic smile that brings others back from that hell they were in? Is it just so difficult to love and understand fellow human beings? Don’t tell me Aidan O’Connor was right. I do not believe that this world is full of shit! Argh! Is it really so much easier to blame and hurt than to love and care? Is T.L.C. such a difficult thing to give freely??

      AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!