snooke my world :)

Okokok…sorry for the stupid title. I’m just quite tired and pissed off with that stupid SCIENCE TEACHER! ARGH!!! So irritating! She gave me a “D” just cuz I tried to point out that she is really not teaching anything. And what’s more, comes back and complain that I’m not taking initiative to learn!!! What the–!!! I mean, I asked questions, I ask so much but she keeps asking me back!!! ARGH! I know, when she ask, she’s wanting me to think. But then when I do not understand a program, all she does is to ask me to refer back to the programs given. Sheesh! If I can get anything from the programs, I wouldn’t have asked her!!!

ARGH!!!!

Anyway, I was just thinking about something- Cheating on Boyfriends. Weird, I know, since I don’t have one. The thing is, I was reading a slash story, and it got into my system that one guy was actually cheating on the other. It’s painful, seriously, to be cheated on, right? Even lying can be seen as a form of betrayal huh….

Sigh

I miss my friends. I know SK will go strange on me but seriously, I do. I miss the times when Gladys would just poke Geral for the fun it it, when we all grinned at how blur SK could be.Those days when we saw each other everyday and could just predict another’s next move. Now, things are just different. We don’t see each other everyday, smses come and go. We speak, but somehow there’s a little different. We haven’t caught a movie together ever since the “Spiderwick chronicles”. Everyone’s busy busy busy… Don’t we love each other anymore? I don’t wanne live life like many people, drifting away from their high school friends just cuz they have no time for each other. I wanne live like James Potter, Peter Pettigrew, Sirius Black and Remus Lupin. Being the god-parents of each other’s kids, having a close-knit friendship that no BGR will ever break. Listen(or read)! You guys are so important to me. Words just aren’t enough. I can live without you guys, but life would be quite empty, don’t you see? I love you guys and I’m not regretting a second for knowing you guys! I know that many a times I was a great bitch, very hard to live with, but then you guys are still here and I appreciate it! Don’t wanne part k…..

No matter what, you guys were the ones and will always be the ones in my heart.

Oh God(x10)!!!! I’m such a whoozy pervert!!! I’m so crazy about Snape/Harry slash, but its so damned scary at times!!! SNARRY rocks ok!!

*depressed*

I miss him. That one person that mattered the most to me. At the end of the day, we just parted and everything ended, without a word. So many things I wanne say to him. To apologize, to say that he was a friend I held dear… Now it’s really too late but… So be it. This is for him though…

Well, I know that it’s early and it’s too hard to think
And the broken empty bottles are a reminder in the sink
But I thought that I should tell you, if it’s not to late to say
I could put back all the pieces, they just might not fit the same

Cause nothing’s worth losing especially the chance to make it right

And I know that we’re gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won’t get it back when we die

Well, I know it’s been years now, and I don’t look the same
And the hopes and dreams you had for me you thought went down the drain.
And the room feels so empty where my pictures used to be
And I can’t say that I blame you, but you can’t blame me

Cause nothing’s worth losing especially the chance to make it right

And I know that we’re gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won’t get it back when we die

Come over
Come over

Cause I gotta know, if I am doing this all on my own

Come over
Come over

How can I show you if you’re not here

And I know that we’re gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won’t get it back when we die

And I know that we’re gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won’t get it back when we die

Come over
Come over

Wooohooohooohaaaaawwww

Come over
Come over

Wooohooohooohaaaaawwww

Come over
Come over

(I gotta know)
(And we wont get it back when we die)

With you, this is how I will always feel.

Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
One look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I’ll never understand why you hang around
I see what’s going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
Tell yourself it’s never gonna happen again
You cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I’ll tell you my friend, one day this world’s going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
Every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what’s going down.

I see the way you go and say your right again,
Say your right again
Heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I’ll tell you my friend, one day this world’s going to end
As your lies crumble down a new life she has found.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn’t hurt she says I finally had enough..
Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn’t hurt she says I finally had enough..

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
Its coming round again.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I’ll tell you my friend, one day this world’s going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I’ll tell you my friend, one day this world’s going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn’t hurt she says I finally had enough..

What the fuck is wrong with you! Why on earth are you forcing me to do things that I dont wanne do! I really hate it when you force me to a corner! ARGH!!!! You know that there is so much I can do. Yet, again and again, you force me to do things that are not even my responsibility! FUCK YOU!

Dunno why I used that title but that doesnt matter. Anyway, the thing is that I’m just update what I’m doing now. One thing for sure, I’m rereading my Harry Potter series, but it’s from the last book up the list, starting from the Deathly Hallows. I’m also knitting. A classmate of mine, Syafiq, offered me a bag of yarn that his aunt gave his mom. WHOO!!!! FREE YARN!!! Hahahah… So happy…. I also have quite alot of queued projects now and it IMPOSSIBLE to focus la…. SICK. But I’m happy about it anyway, so yeah.

So, finally, the question that boggles us most. How much am I worth? To the people around you, your loved ones and to yourself, are you worth S$5 or US$5 mil.?? Are you the one that respects yourself most, or allow others to trample all over you? How important are you to yourself?

To me, I have understand the fact that not everyone can respect each other, even if you are their girlfriend, wife, etc. It never matters. As long as a person feels that you deserved to be trampled on, they will trample on you. Believe me, I’m no weakling. I fought and I fought, and I’m still fighting. I certainly believe that I do not deserve to be treatd like S.H.I.T. No matter how much crap I’ve dumped on people, I’ve moved on. Now I’m trying to be what I can be best, MYSELF. And no one is going to change that goddamned fact. Enough is enough and I know that no amount of money can buy me cuz I’m priceless!

Was listening to the some “Empty” by Click five. Darn! I remembered her then. I still remember last year when I had a crush on a girl. She’s a few years older than I am, and she’s AWESOME. She wasn’t feminine like eww, sort of feminine. She demanded respect from us and we just gave it cuz there was no reason to defy her. It was short lasting but lovely all the same.

BY THE WAY, I’M NOT A LESBIAN OK? EVERYONE WOULD HAVE LIKED SOMEONE THE SAME SEX AS THEM OK? I MAY NOT BE NORMAL, BUT I’M NOT A HOMO ANYWAY.